Cast your minds back to 2013, do you have any idea what you were doing then?
Well I do, my mum managed to convince me to go to a Taekwondo class (it's a South Korean martial art) and that was terrifying. I mean I'm the most uncoordinated, clumsy, generally useless person on the planet and the idea of me doing anything that required my legs and arms to work in sync was insanity.
But here I am almost 5 years later and I'm one grading away from my black belt which is seriously exciting but also the most terrifying thing EVER!
But I've been on a rather long break due to injury, so when I came back I was determined to get my act together in time for the upcoming grading in June, and I did. I was training the hardest I had in almost a year, I was feeling very confident. So when I walked into the grading preparation seminar I was ready to be told that could go get my black belt.
This is what you have to do for both the black belt grading and the seminar:
I did all of this and I thought it went really well, I was feeling really confident, ready and excited.
BUT!
Then I was told "Sorry YOU CAN'T GRADE ". To say I was devastated would be an understatement.
It felt as though I had finally got the confidence to do something awesome and it just got trampled, burnt and then put in a wood-chipper.
Now, about two weeks later I am still utterly disappointed but I've had time to think about and I can see why my instructors made the decision they did. Clearly if my confidence can be so easily influenced then I am not in the right headspace to go for this examination.
But on a more positive note, I now get six months to get myself ready for the grading in December and by then I'll be able to completely smash my grading and walk away with a black belt.
Have any of you ever been turned down for something and thought it wasn't fair or felt like someone just came along and destroyed your confidence?
See you soon
Ellie
xxx
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