First Day Jitters

So from today I am being home educated but for the first month or so I'm just going to be un-schooled, that means I'm just going to get used to being at home, not seeing my friends everyday and how different it really is.

But if you think this is easier than school because I can spend all day in my pyjamas or sleep in, then you're wrong.

Today was only my first day being at home and it's already lonely and weird, I mean it's not like I have anyone to talk to all my friends are at school so it's not like I can just turn around and say hi.

Maybe why I'm sad, scared and lonely is because I really feel all alone and that makes me sad and it scares, no it terrifies me. I guess it's because my friends are all together somewhere I'm not and that means I'm going to be forgotten.

I know my friends will try to stay in touch and it'll work for a little while but I done this whole thing before and in my experience it never works, so maybe it would be better for everyone if i just stayed away, that way there's no prolonged guilt or pain.

Any of you ever been in this kind of a situation before? If you have and you just happen to have some advice please, please tell me in the comments!

#miserablemondays

see you soon

Ellie

xxx